I'm Nec.
I'm a groupie, and my best friend is not a bomb threat.
Nineteen years of bones and skin.
A whole world of extraordinary supernatural,
and you settle for mundane. Everything is conditional.
It would be a matter of opinion to say that I've lived a lot,
but it's my opinion that these few years have seen too much.
I may be honest, unbiased, modest, and pure,
but I'm not at all innocent.
Staying in one place for too long reminds me that I've got a past,
and I could spend my life running from it,
and that would be alright.
I'll do what it takes to stay happy; to truly feel alive.
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Well, I'm still alright.
I just wonder if it's different, or if it's all the same.
I just wonder what it is. That's all.I just wonder,
and my mind just wanders.And I just wonder.
You know, you know.You've got the charm, and you're charming.
And you know what to say and who to say it to.
I don't want to assume, because I've already believed you.
I'm too much of an idealist. And I think you caught on.
But under, you didn't know that my mind works two ways,
and that my vision is wonderful. And I see perfectly fine.
I like to let it fall where it does. And what? I don't know.
Things happen. Things don't. If you plan something,
it never seems to go the right way. I'm sporadic. You're not.
I'm an observer, a watcher, an onlooker.
You go out and do what you do, and the people watch you.
I'm still alright. Things happen. Things don't.
I'm still alright, I just tend to wander.
The moment I'm home is the moment I'm lost.
For that short while, my confusion stopped.
And when it ended, it began again, and it was just hard to adjust to.
That's all. I'm still alright. It was just nice. Things happen. Things don't.
I'll be just fine, I'll just wonder, and I'll just wander,
with you on my mind.
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You texted me this morning.
why? I know my reply was harsh.
Its not that i hate you, im just running away,
because i still love you. And its for the best for us.
I dont want things to be like the way it was before and
ending up hurting. Theres nothing more to say, nothing will make
me stay, im leaving. Im leaving you with the past.
And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay,
I'm moving on.
-we are history.
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Bloopers and Fun Stuff - sometimes they are more interesting than the photoshoot itself.
Photos from my last shoot in march.
These are all behind the scene shots.
Along with my MUA-
Mav Chien
WTH?? This is the m oment where she starts
her crazyness and decided to put weird hair on my face -.-.
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Receiving bad news.
Im having a bad morning as i did'nt sleep much last night,
i took 6pills and i still could'nt go to bed and my teeth was aching badly.
I kept thinking about you and worried soo much,
I was attending the muslim talk and received
a phone call from you last night. I got really freaked out
when you said you were hospitalised.
I quickly ran out from the theatre and sat at one corner.
I didnt know what to do, i got soo worrid and i cried soo badly,
Shafiee was there to encourage me.
I was praying the whole time for you outside.
I hope you will get well soon as i really care for you
and dont want to loose you, not at a time like this.
I regret soo much for having a fight the night before with you.
i felt soo bad about it.
IM SORRY B
I will always be praying for you.
للهم عافني في بدني اللهم عافني سمعي اللهم عافني بصري
للهم إني أعوذبك من الكفر والفقر. اللهم إني
أعوذبك من عذاب القبر لا إله إلا أنت
سألك العفو و العافية وحسن اليقين والمعافاة فى
الدنيا والأخرة
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Finally, everythings came to an end.
you are back with him, and im starting new with someone else.
i knew from the start we'll never make it together.
Because i knew hes still in your heart, and i can never replace him.
Im sorry if i didnt try hard enough.
I've always knew you still love him when we were still together,
its just that i dont want to bring it up.
But deep inside, i know what was going on.
you guys have been contacting each other all this while,
but i kept quiet about it. You know i love you and only you.
You know i care for you and i gave you space and try to be as understanding as i can.
But i dont want to go further if this hurts you alot,
i rather let you go and be with him.
rather then seeing you get all stressed up about the situation.
If you're happier with him, then im happy for you.
To be honest, i was already prepared for this.
I know that you will go back to him someday.
Im not mad at you or dissapointed with you.
I have no reason for it because YOU chose who you want to spent the rest of your life with,
im a nobody to stop or change your decision on that,
all i can do is to wish you the best of luck.
And if i love you, i should respect your decision.
Its time to let you go.
and please, no more trying.
We've been tru soo much and its tiring.
Ive realised, whatever i do, i can never do it like him.
I can never make you happy and smile like they way he did.
I have officially closed the door in my heart for you,
if i have no place in your heart,
soo will you in mine.
Too much chances,
too much hope and
too much hurting.
And it all came down to the same point.
This will be the last time i will be talking about us.
You've been a great guy in my life. No Regrets.
Dont be angry if i dissapear away from your life.
I just dont want to be your rebound guy again if something happens to you and him.
And i dont want to be a stir in your life anymore.
It will just be better if im gone from your life.
And im sorry for everything i have done wrong to you,
im not asking for your forgiveness nor your apologies.
whose fault doesnt matter. Its all over.
We know we're not perfect,
we're human beings.
Try not to think about me anymore.
I will not be coming back.
You've moved on,
and soo will i.
New look! ew?
Labels: Nec Hezner
I'm Nec.
I'm a groupie, and my best friend is not a bomb threat.
Nineteen years of bones and skin.
A whole world of extraordinary supernatural,
and you settle for mundane. Everything is conditional.
It would be a matter of opinion to say that I've lived a lot,
but it's my opinion that these few years have seen too much.
I may be honest, unbiased, modest, and pure,
but I'm not at all innocent.
Staying in one place for too long reminds me that I've got a past,
and I could spend my life running from it,
and that would be alright.
I'll do what it takes to stay happy; to truly feel alive.
Labels: Nec Hezner
Well, I'm still alright.
I just wonder if it's different, or if it's all the same.
I just wonder what it is. That's all.I just wonder,
and my mind just wanders.And I just wonder.
You know, you know.You've got the charm, and you're charming.
And you know what to say and who to say it to.
I don't want to assume, because I've already believed you.
I'm too much of an idealist. And I think you caught on.
But under, you didn't know that my mind works two ways,
and that my vision is wonderful. And I see perfectly fine.
I like to let it fall where it does. And what? I don't know.
Things happen. Things don't. If you plan something,
it never seems to go the right way. I'm sporadic. You're not.
I'm an observer, a watcher, an onlooker.
You go out and do what you do, and the people watch you.
I'm still alright. Things happen. Things don't.
I'm still alright, I just tend to wander.
The moment I'm home is the moment I'm lost.
For that short while, my confusion stopped.
And when it ended, it began again, and it was just hard to adjust to.
That's all. I'm still alright. It was just nice. Things happen. Things don't.
I'll be just fine, I'll just wonder, and I'll just wander,
with you on my mind.
Labels: Nec Hezner
You texted me this morning.
why? I know my reply was harsh.
Its not that i hate you, im just running away,
because i still love you. And its for the best for us.
I dont want things to be like the way it was before and
ending up hurting. Theres nothing more to say, nothing will make
me stay, im leaving. Im leaving you with the past.
And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay,
I'm moving on.
-we are history.
Labels: Nec Hezner
Bloopers and Fun Stuff - sometimes they are more interesting than the photoshoot itself.
Photos from my last shoot in march.
These are all behind the scene shots.
Along with my MUA-
Mav Chien
WTH?? This is the m oment where she starts
her crazyness and decided to put weird hair on my face -.-.
Labels: Nec Hezner
Receiving bad news.
Im having a bad morning as i did'nt sleep much last night,
i took 6pills and i still could'nt go to bed and my teeth was aching badly.
I kept thinking about you and worried soo much,
I was attending the muslim talk and received
a phone call from you last night. I got really freaked out
when you said you were hospitalised.
I quickly ran out from the theatre and sat at one corner.
I didnt know what to do, i got soo worrid and i cried soo badly,
Shafiee was there to encourage me.
I was praying the whole time for you outside.
I hope you will get well soon as i really care for you
and dont want to loose you, not at a time like this.
I regret soo much for having a fight the night before with you.
i felt soo bad about it.
IM SORRY B
I will always be praying for you.
للهم عافني في بدني اللهم عافني سمعي اللهم عافني بصري
للهم إني أعوذبك من الكفر والفقر. اللهم إني
أعوذبك من عذاب القبر لا إله إلا أنت
سألك العفو و العافية وحسن اليقين والمعافاة فى
الدنيا والأخرة
Labels: Nec Hezner
Finally, everythings came to an end.
you are back with him, and im starting new with someone else.
i knew from the start we'll never make it together.
Because i knew hes still in your heart, and i can never replace him.
Im sorry if i didnt try hard enough.
I've always knew you still love him when we were still together,
its just that i dont want to bring it up.
But deep inside, i know what was going on.
you guys have been contacting each other all this while,
but i kept quiet about it. You know i love you and only you.
You know i care for you and i gave you space and try to be as understanding as i can.
But i dont want to go further if this hurts you alot,
i rather let you go and be with him.
rather then seeing you get all stressed up about the situation.
If you're happier with him, then im happy for you.
To be honest, i was already prepared for this.
I know that you will go back to him someday.
Im not mad at you or dissapointed with you.
I have no reason for it because YOU chose who you want to spent the rest of your life with,
im a nobody to stop or change your decision on that,
all i can do is to wish you the best of luck.
And if i love you, i should respect your decision.
Its time to let you go.
and please, no more trying.
We've been tru soo much and its tiring.
Ive realised, whatever i do, i can never do it like him.
I can never make you happy and smile like they way he did.
I have officially closed the door in my heart for you,
if i have no place in your heart,
soo will you in mine.
Too much chances,
too much hope and
too much hurting.
And it all came down to the same point.
This will be the last time i will be talking about us.
You've been a great guy in my life. No Regrets.
Dont be angry if i dissapear away from your life.
I just dont want to be your rebound guy again if something happens to you and him.
And i dont want to be a stir in your life anymore.
It will just be better if im gone from your life.
And im sorry for everything i have done wrong to you,
im not asking for your forgiveness nor your apologies.
whose fault doesnt matter. Its all over.
We know we're not perfect,
we're human beings.
Try not to think about me anymore.
I will not be coming back.
You've moved on,
and soo will i.
New look! ew?
Labels: Nec Hezner
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